O Love, listen to me

Hey love

Can you hear me? I don't know about you but i can hear you, i can count your heartbeats too, as you live besides me.

I can feel you, i can touch you

I don't know how to say, 

But listen that I love you

I want to say many things to you

But am afraid to say you too

I want to be with you everytime

But do not want to restrict you

Oh dear, often I think about

How we met and what we are now

What matters most?

Came here again with a question, what matters most in life? I don't have an analytical mind so I can't calculate but for me its a tough choice between love, relationship and dreams.

Love, in my words, is a divine feeling an individual can feel. I can't express love in wordings, for me its a basic need of my life. Love doesn't meant to be romantic only, for me its spiritual. I can feel your presence here love, while you are far away.

I used to be an spiritual person and I can connect myself well from your spirit. You may call me a lunetic, but this is what I am.

Now relationship, does it matters to be in a relationship with someone we love? For me, of course its not. Whenever I went into a relationship I always got hurt. I don't want to get hurt again, but at the same time I also want to be with you too. What an irony.

Here comes my dreams..... Without which my existence means nothing. But again, without love my dreams means nothing, again an irony. I used to wander in my dreamlands (P.S. I am a daydreamer too) where I can see you, touch you, can talk to you, can play with you, can go on a date too. Hehehe, I don't know what to do without my dreams.... I love to dream and I dream to love too. 

Hey, don't get angry, just let me accompany you in my dreams, I will feel good if you come. Welcome to my dreamland honey, thats my choice.

Its You Only You

Hi, just forgive me for this post, writing it in a whim.

I don't know how to say it but you, yes you have become an important person in my life in just a few days only. You know, i was living a life just like a body without soul, but after you met me life is like a blooming garden in spring time. 

Sometimes I can't find right words to express my feelings but let me tell you one thing, you are my sunshine. I can't tell you my feelings kid, so I am penning it all here.

You know, you are only a kid but for me you are someone very close to my heart. I used to game a lot but I don't know what you did to me, I don't like to play anymore without you, my hubby in gaming world. 

You said you are not but I found you cute. You know? You have a very beautiful smile, a smile full of a kid's life and ambitions. You have twinkling eyes too, sometimes I want to drown in those eyes.

Hey cutie kid, I am unable to express it but one thing for sure is, that's its you and only you who has bring some sunshine in my life. You are changing my bad habits slowly but alas, you are only a kid hubby. 

Just one more thing, let's play together for rest of our lives, I miss you too much, can't play when you don't come there. And yeah, you, only you will be my hubby for my every character there, love you very much hubby. Take care of yourself you shy baby.

Something Very Special for Someone Very Special

I don't know what I have to say or what I am going to say, but there are too many things in my mind that I want to share with you. 

To be with you has been the strongest dream of my life, without you my life is incomplete, its what I think. I know, our life is not going on the same way as it was sometimes, but it doesn't mean my love for you has been decreased or vanished. I admit, I was wrong on various occasions, but I never left your hand either. 

I quarreled with you on various reasons, but I never meant to hurt you. I have make you cry for many times, but it never meant I don't care for you.

I don't know what you think about me now, but I have various reasons to think about you without showing any interest. I still pick up my phone and often try to call you just to hear you only. Your voice has been the biggest attraction to me, I love it so much that I have made your voice my phone's ringtone, please forgive me for this confession.

I am not asking you for anything, don't show any love any affection for me, as I have to be reaped what i sow.  Ignoring you due to some reasons only was a problem with me, you were right always, its me who always declined to accept it all. I am being punished for my cowardliness, as now I think I had the ability to overcome my personal problems. 

My only wish is that, do whatever you want, go wherever you want to go but never forget there is a girl who is incomplete without you, incomplete in every manner.........being your wife, I have seen the most beautiful days of my life, I have framed those moments in my mind, my heart. My love for you is so strong, I could feel you everywhere. For me, being materialistic is not more valuable, I can feel you anywhere whether you are with me or not. Now, I feel like being in love again with a person who someday could read the love in my eyes. I don't have the words to express it, but my eyes could speak everything..............

A NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE

Yesterday, I was going through some blogs, some highly creative illusions.........i kept reading on, suddenly i felt myself going back to some old days. I started thinking, how i was? what i was? and now, what i am? and finally what i am going to be? In the past few years, life has taken so many turns and twists that i myself forgot my real identity. After thinking so much on that topic, still i am unable to accept the truth..... someone says life is a circle and a person could replace another one.....but what i think is, although life is a full circle, but every person in your life have their own respective places, how anyone else could replace them? Someone told me to watch a movie named The Prestige, its really a good movie, a very good watch....while watching the movie, suddenly i began to feel like one of the characters. I was full of jealousy, pride, ego....even i was so much envious, that i forgot to take a look on the situations behind everything. My life was going through a bad phase, falsely implicated sorrows and blames etc. I was so much busy with my own problems that i forgot to think about others. I was not like that. I began to think, how changed I am now? I have never been so selfish, but for last some months how selfishly i behaved? Thanks to the movie, i finally got to know the actual problem with me.

Yesterday i promised myself to forget everything which is now my past and live in present in that manner so that no one could ever complain about myself. Being jobless now, I was so much frustrated, Today is a day when I am getting more and more offers and I am puzzled to join which one......sounding funny na? But its the reality, my life has been changed. If life is a circle, then someday I would be the same as I used to be, at least I wish to be like that.........

Today I have learned so many things. Sorrow is something which can stop you from achieving your goals, now I have learned to be happy, and now i can say proudly, I am a happy person. Today brings a new chapter in my life, and i want to live it......without any enmity, sorrow, jealousy, I just want to live my life completely. Today is the beginning of a new chapter in my life and I am determined to enjoy every moment of it.

Do I Really Hate You?

Was thinking from last 2 days, do i really hate you? talashti rahi dil ke andar, tumhi to ho wahan. nahi, wo tum nahi ho...wo to koi aur hai. koi aisa jo sach men mere dil ke bahot qareeb hai. koi aisa jise main sach men kabhi khud se door nahi kar sakti. sochti hoon tum bin zindagi kya hogi......veeran, ujdi hui.....nahi, takleef men hoon lekin aisa to nahi hai ki zindagi hi rooth gayi ho. dil men koi umang to nahi hai lekin phir bhi jeene ka hausla to hai.....aur yehi hona bhi chahiye. na jaane kitne log toota hua dil leke jeete hain, ham ya tum unse alag to nahi hain.
tum khoye raho rangeeniyon men
ham jeene ka hunar seekhte hain
itna sab kuchh ho gaya phir bhi main khud se ye nahi kah pa rahi hoon ki i really hate you. main sochti hoon ki kahan kaun si galti ho gayi mujhse, kaise mujhe tumko pahchanne men bhool ho gayi. tum kya ho, ye kahna main zaroori nahi samajhti kyonki tum jaante ho tum kya ho.........main kuchh nahi kahoongi kyonki main kahoongi to rooth jaoge......waise bhi abhi bhi unhi madhoshiyon men khoye hue ho jab chot lagegi tab yaad kar lena ki kabhi kisi mukhlis insaan ne roka tha, samjhaya tha..........shayad tumhen kabhi yaad na aaye lekin main tumko kabhi nahi bhool paungi.

Rishte

Achanak se dil ne kaha chalo rishte ko apni nazron se dekhte hain. Rishte ki buniyaad kya hoti hai--- shayad bharosa. shayad? nahi surely bharosa hi hai. wo rishta, rishta hi kaise jismen bharosa na ho.
Bharosa jo toot jaye to rishte ki koi ehmiyat nahi rah jaati, aaj mere saath bhi kuchh aisa hi hua hai. ek rishte par se mera bharosa aaj poori tarah uth gaya hai, aaj wo rishta khatam ho raha hai shayad.
behtar hota hai jab bharosa hi na rahe ho rishte ke naam ko khatm kar diya jaaye, mushkil kaam hai, na jane kaun sa rishta ho. lekin sach hai bharosa bahot zaroori hota hai kisi bhi rishte ke liye. aaj ye rishta meri nazar men bemaayeni ho chuka hai, aisa lag raha hai jaise dhoka aur fareb iski buniyaad hain. kahan hai bharosa, kahan hai rishta? kahan hain rishton ki duhaayi dene wale? sab jhooth hai, dhoka hai, ek fareb hai bas aur kuchh nahi. isse to behtar hai ki insaan paththar ka ban jaaye, rishton se to bach jaayega.