Something Very Special for Someone Very Special

I don't know what I have to say or what I am going to say, but there are too many things in my mind that I want to share with you. 

To be with you has been the strongest dream of my life, without you my life is incomplete, its what I think. I know, our life is not going on the same way as it was sometimes, but it doesn't mean my love for you has been decreased or vanished. I admit, I was wrong on various occasions, but I never left your hand either. 

I quarreled with you on various reasons, but I never meant to hurt you. I have make you cry for many times, but it never meant I don't care for you.

I don't know what you think about me now, but I have various reasons to think about you without showing any interest. I still pick up my phone and often try to call you just to hear you only. Your voice has been the biggest attraction to me, I love it so much that I have made your voice my phone's ringtone, please forgive me for this confession.

I am not asking you for anything, don't show any love any affection for me, as I have to be reaped what i sow.  Ignoring you due to some reasons only was a problem with me, you were right always, its me who always declined to accept it all. I am being punished for my cowardliness, as now I think I had the ability to overcome my personal problems. 

My only wish is that, do whatever you want, go wherever you want to go but never forget there is a girl who is incomplete without you, incomplete in every manner.........being your wife, I have seen the most beautiful days of my life, I have framed those moments in my mind, my heart. My love for you is so strong, I could feel you everywhere. For me, being materialistic is not more valuable, I can feel you anywhere whether you are with me or not. Now, I feel like being in love again with a person who someday could read the love in my eyes. I don't have the words to express it, but my eyes could speak everything..............

A NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE

Yesterday, I was going through some blogs, some highly creative illusions.........i kept reading on, suddenly i felt myself going back to some old days. I started thinking, how i was? what i was? and now, what i am? and finally what i am going to be? In the past few years, life has taken so many turns and twists that i myself forgot my real identity. After thinking so much on that topic, still i am unable to accept the truth..... someone says life is a circle and a person could replace another one.....but what i think is, although life is a full circle, but every person in your life have their own respective places, how anyone else could replace them? Someone told me to watch a movie named The Prestige, its really a good movie, a very good watch....while watching the movie, suddenly i began to feel like one of the characters. I was full of jealousy, pride, ego....even i was so much envious, that i forgot to take a look on the situations behind everything. My life was going through a bad phase, falsely implicated sorrows and blames etc. I was so much busy with my own problems that i forgot to think about others. I was not like that. I began to think, how changed I am now? I have never been so selfish, but for last some months how selfishly i behaved? Thanks to the movie, i finally got to know the actual problem with me.

Yesterday i promised myself to forget everything which is now my past and live in present in that manner so that no one could ever complain about myself. Being jobless now, I was so much frustrated, Today is a day when I am getting more and more offers and I am puzzled to join which one......sounding funny na? But its the reality, my life has been changed. If life is a circle, then someday I would be the same as I used to be, at least I wish to be like that.........

Today I have learned so many things. Sorrow is something which can stop you from achieving your goals, now I have learned to be happy, and now i can say proudly, I am a happy person. Today brings a new chapter in my life, and i want to live it......without any enmity, sorrow, jealousy, I just want to live my life completely. Today is the beginning of a new chapter in my life and I am determined to enjoy every moment of it.